December 5 2014

I'm pretty upset I woke up so late. I couldn't breathe last night and my lungs feel super sore and probably with some liquid. They just feel heavy. No big deal though, I've been kinda sick lately. ***2 Minutes later. < I had a back cramp. But anywho, Things I'm thankful for. 

• Music. Even though I don't think I'm musically challenged at all, I still feel it, I want to move to it, I can cry to it, I can overcome to it. I have a pretty diverse music collection, and I was explaining to my friend yesterday that I just love music that brings good memories. Jason DeRulo's Talk dirty to me was playing and it reminded me of May when I first got hired by my current job and my manager played it endlessly and it was just a fun/goofy experience and it was probably so small to everyone else but to me it meant a lot just because I remember being really happy and dancing along setting up seats for training. It's a good memory. :P 
• When people ask me for artistic advice. It feels soooooo good and I have no idea why. 
• I enjoy my small group of friends and family. I'm even friends with the kid (not so kid anymore) I watch over some nights and used to babysit. People think I say that because I get paid, but honestly he's a very down to earth, fun 13 year old, and normally 13 yr olds are so self-entitled and such high stress/teen angst that I find it hard to deal with them. This kid, is not one of those and it makes my 'job' super easy and fun. 
• Clean sheets. It's so silly but I washed my sheets the other day because they were looking pretty dingy (I know, it was probably overdue and I couldn't take it) and just sleeping with them and smelling them while listening to my rainforest music helped me go to bed so much faster. The little things ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ
• It's going to sound so silly and you're probably going to think I'm spoiled and sometimes I am, nor do I care. But my parents gave me their card to put gas in the car and I just really really appreciated it. They do very often but it's a little luxury I never ever forget because it's pretty important for me to get to and from school and then to and from work meetings

Inspire yourself to do something out of your comfort zone today! I dare you! Tell me how it goes :3 

December 4 2014

Mornin'  people of the interwebs. I apologize if this a not so great list, but just so you know, I'm forcing myself to do this because really I just want to go to bed. I scheduled to write at 8am and it's 8:09. So right on track haha, it's actually not to bad. I'm just going to stop talking seeing as I'm not a morning person. 

1. I'm thankful for chocolate. Omg sooo thankful and for coffee.. Combined? YESSSS not even negotiable, fastest way to my heart right there. And humor, super important to me. 
2. You'll get sick of hearing it, but YouTube. I find it very inspirational and fun to watch. I'm not one of those uber nerds who does 'all hail Pewdiepie' [Although he's one of my favorites.] But if it were down or no longer a thing like Myspace [which will never happen.] Then I would be EXTREMELY disappointed. 
3. Journals, I have so many journals and hardcovers are my favorites and I can't speak for most other people, but I love reading them. I really do, it's every emotion of everything I felt. My only regret is I didn't write more, they're really fun to go through. Golly, 10 years from now, I'm going to laugh at those 'end of my life' moments where I thought that moment would be so detrimental and really it was just a life lesson. 
4. Love letters. Although I can't even tell you the last time I had a love note or what not,  I always appreciated them. It made me feel completely and utterly special and the more unique and sincere.... Uhh my heart would get all gooey and disgusting. Actually, that's pretty embarrassing but why stop now?
5. My dad! I'm looking down at the buddha necklace he gave me the other day and I'm going to cherish it forever. We butt heads all the time, we disagree, we fight, but we're identical beings in different shells. Staying with me? Emotionally we're structured the exact same way and it can come off cold and put off, but we're actually very friendly. Super hard to explain but ya know. It's not uncommon for me to offend someone I love or that loves me at least 5 times throughout our time together. 
   

Alright, that's it! I'm totally going to curl back in bed for an hour then go for my finals. I'm reeeallllly not anticipating this at all and I'm extremely nervous even though I really have studied. Annnnnd I've never studied till college so I feel a little behind than everyone else. 

Be someone's hero today.

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December 3 2014

1. My insane nephew. Seriously this kid brightens my day and I love to tease him, teach him knew things, and share my hot cocoa with him. Not that he gives me a choice. 
2. Those tiny moments I can take for myself to take a breather and tell myself that no matter how bad I mess up, I'm strong enough to find a way out. Because man, do I mess up a lot. 
3. My sister, she is always pushing me and even if it's harsh criticism I'm appreciative of it. She knows me better than I know me sometimes, especially when I'm being an annoying, self-loathing wimp. 
4. When I close my eyes and just smile I can hear everything around me and it feels like nature's way of telling me, "You're going to be great. You just have to push through the obstacles."
5. Hmmmm 5... Unconditional love. I may disappoint and hurt people sometimes, but there's just something about knowing they've invested the time into you and that they genuinely care, even if they don't want to see your face for a while. :P 

Aspire to be a better person.